this chilly fall day, i am happy to be here at this moment for my son. our neighbor invited him to his birthday party. this is a moment, simply because, he doesn't get invited to many parties. unlike my daughter who, we would decline parties, she couldn't figure out how to be two places at once. so for wyatt, this was nice, however for me, it brings me sadness. i am grateful for these moments, for him, but selfishly i grieve for a life i wish for him.